Fat Bottomed Girls You Make This World Go Round

Just a quick update and now that I have more time for things in my life I will definatley try to start blogging every day.   No new big news really.  Well there is one thing, but i will get into that in a little bit.  My job is going really well.  i have been promoted to part time assistant mmanager.  Not to toot my horn or anything, but this is pretty big news.  The best part is since deb was recently bought out out because it was going bankrupt, I was able to speak to one of the head haunchos and I mentioned this position to him (because it did not previously exist) and based on some of the things I mentioned to him, he created the position.  I was also the first one in the entire deb company (or so I was told).  That was what I meant by not wanting to toot my own horn, but I was very rewarding, and since this is a documentation of my life, I thought I would just shoot that out there.  So if anyone was wondering what was going on with the title of this post, we are getting to this.  My mom and I are going on a diet together.  We are suppossed to be losing 30 pounds in 6 weeks.  If not we get our money back.  And i know that this is really personal, but if you are over weight, I am sure that you share these feelings with me.  i am tired of feeling ashamed of my body.  I am tired of avoiding mirrors.  I am tired of wondering how big my body will be in a few years.  I am tired of feeling embarrassed at the beach and the pool.  I am tired of  looking at old pictures of myself and wondering who is that person?  Yeah, its embarassing.  AND I am tired of other people's comments like "you used to be so skinny"  or "you used to be so pretty" and the classic "what happened to you".  And even though I am disgusted with other people's insensitivity, I am not going on this diet because of what other people say.  i am doing this because I want to feel good about myself.  I don't want to be ashamed of me any more.