If I Die Young

Had a super scary near death experience the other day.  This actually really hard to write about, not because it freaks me out or anything, but because i am totally jamming out to the rhythm of love, which is not really a near death experience.  At all.  On a side not, it is totally my new fav song.  I just started a spotify account.  Loving how I can chose a song, and create playlists and stuff like that.  Soooo much better than stupid pandora or even iheart radio.  OOO, wait, finding a sad near death experience song.  One sec.  Ok, listening to If I Die Young, by the Band Perry, which was the inspiration for title of this post.  Back to my NDE.  It was pretty late one night last week, and I was driving home from work in this horrible horrible rain storm. I was soaked wet from dropping off the bank deposit.  I turned on the heat in my car to get warm.  It was poring rain, so I decided to take the highway home becasue I thought it would be easier than the back road I usually take.  It was really hard to see because some of the street lights were out, and I have really horrible night vision.  I was about half way home, and all of the sudden, my car started fogging up and I could see at all.  I had to merge over to get into the correct lane, but I couldn't see at all.  I was driving blind in a foggy car, in poaring rain.  I tried to get into the emergency lane in order to figure out which buttons to push to de fog my car, but I literally couldn't see a thing.  My hands started shaking as I slowly crept down I-95, trying to see where the emergency lane was. I turned on my air conditioner and opened my window in a desperate last ditch effort to be able to see.  I was soaked and frigid air was blowing on me.Suddenly, the rain slowed and miracously, my windshield cleared up just enough for me to see a little.  To my absolute frustration, I had been driving in the emergency lane for the last few minutes.  I managed to see enough to drive home.  I climbed into bed totally soaked and frozen.  I started thinking about what could have happened to me while I was driving blind all  of that time.  All of the sudden my body started shaking, and I started crying hysterically.  Totally freaked Jon out since he was asleep.  Glad somebody upstairs was watching out for me that night.  When I was falling asleep later, I started thinking about just how fragile our lives are, and how easily our secure little worlds could all come crashing down around us.  It's really a frightening though.